time

I am intensely aware of time and of the impermanence of life. I am always thinking of what is coming next, and don't really like this. I think that's part of the reason I never decorate my room, because it's hard to see a point when I have to take it all down again so soon. I used to think about this a lot with relationships, I wouldn't talk to teams that came to my house much, because they were just going to leave right away. Then I changed and sometimes did. Anyway, I'd like to become less aware of time.