you fixed my friend, can you fix me

i decided today that my summer has been pretty intense, much more intense than I would have wanted. and yet...I think back to last summer, and how often I was miserable last summer, but how now it seems like a really valuable time of healing. I think that is what is happening this summer, is that I am becoming more whole in some way. I don't say that as what I want it to be, that I want to believe that my problems are leading me to something better, I'm saying it because I see my problems leading to something better.

what a pain.